He told me, "Stick to it if it is good for you, but be honest in it." I feel that this was an answer. On one hand it would answer my plea and let me know that I should stay; and on the other hand it was an instruction for the future that I should not be dishonest.
I would like to stress again that Baba always is with me. He has always accompanied me, he has helped me many, many times. For example, once a driver told me he did not have a drivers license. Though I had a drivers license it was not with me then. I said to him, "I will sit in your place." My heart was pounding. If the officer would ask me for my drivers license, what would I tell him? It so happened that Baba's locket was on my coat. When the officer asked us to stop, he must have known that we didn't have the drivers license. At the same time, he never asked for it. I knew that if the police wanted to detain us we'd have to spend the night outside the city and we'd be very uncomfortable. But it was Baba's wish. The officer, instead of asking for my drivers license, asked, "Who is this man on the locket?" I said, "He is one of the people who have reached God and he lives in India and his name is Hazrat Meher Baba." He asked me, "What can he do?" I answered, "He can do everything," and he said, "For example?" I told him that Baba himself said, ‘even if lustful thoughts attack you, start repeating my name and this will relieve you.' I told him, "If you don't believe me you can try for yourself to repeat Baba's name." As soon as I said this he liked it very much. He stood up, shook my hand, said good-bye, and let me go. This episode affected me so much that for two hours my heart was shivering with joy. There were many times like this, but I won't bother you with them. Let me just tell you what happened in 1962.
When Baba called us to India in 1962, we were going to tell him, "Since you have allowed us to come to you after so many years, please allow us to stay with you from now on." But it was as if he had read our hearts. As soon as we arrived there, he told us immediately, "You will be here four days and after the four days you will have to leave." This thing that he said was like a seal you put on an envelope ― it stuck to our hearts and it made our will his will. We had no recourse. When we left Baba to come back to Iran, we felt the joy of being with him had been so overpowering that when we left him and came to Iran, it was as though we had left Paradise and we had entered hell. But there was nothing we could do.
Never the less, we are always thankful to him. We thank him because that joy and peace that enters our heart when we begin to repeat his name destroys all sorrows. I am very happy. I repeat that I am very grateful for his grace. I can say that as far as I'm concerned he has showered his grace over me tremendously. I am very grateful to him and there is no way that I can thank him. I say goodbye and Jai Baba to all.
My name is Iran Azendumush, wife of Khodayara Toos. I did not know of Baba in the beginning. When I was a child it was as if I was searching for some thing, as if I had lost someone and I was looking for him. Wherever I would go, into the temples or wherever, I could not figure out what it was I was looking for. All I felt was that I had someone, something I was looking for, until I became acquainted with Khodayar. In the beginning, I didn't want to get married at all. Then I became acquainted with Khodayar and he was speaking of Baba. Gradually the love that Baba inspired in my heart became the nucleus of our married life and, also, the love in our marriage. In the beginning, as Khodayar would tell me about Baba, although there were times I would believe what he would say, there were other times that I could not believe what he said, especially when he would speak of these extraordinary things of Baba. Those I could not believe. I would say to myself he was lying, maybe it was just pretense or something. Finally, though, I started to hit the books — Hafiz, this one, that one — and I gradually advanced. All of these became so familiar to me that I got acquainted with Baba. It was such that whatever I