to go? A place called Meherabad.” And I said, "Where’s that?" He said, “That’s where Meher Baba lived. It's where His physical body is buried and where His mandali live. It's just this place where you can go and really, it's like — remember that birthday party we went to? — well, you just go and relax." I thought, "Is this what going to India means? That I have to spend time in this Eastern religion place? But I said, "Alright. Just for a few days." He said, "If you don't like it, you can go to Goa. By that time, you 'll be free to travel anywhere you want."

So I knew I was going to this guru place. I called my Evangelical friend on the phone and told him I was going to India and I had to stay at an ashram for a few days. Pray for me. Meanwhile, I kept going to Wayne's house on Friday nights and there were more little pictures of Baba and he said "You know, if you're going to spend time in India at the place in Meherabad, here's a book you should read." It was a pamphlet or something, I don't think I ever read it, but he did suggest reading this book Avatar. I went and bought it, believe it or not. I don't know what possessed me to go to this metaphysical bookstore and buy the book but I bought it and got through half of it and I closed it. I never read Avatar I read Ava ... half of the book. I thought, I have nothing to worry about. I closed the book and said, "This man is crazy. Meher Baba is crazy. He couldn't be anything He says He is, nobody in that position would say they were doing this and then change his mind and move here or there and do this and that." What happened was, I got just a tiny bit interested in Meher Baba because I really started to sense my depression lifting from me. I didn't know what was causing it. Wayne was such a delightful character and I sensed something coming from or through him. Wayne showed me a picture of Baba. It really touched me. And I said to him, "How, do people get into Meher Baba? I don't understand this process." He said, "Meher Baba comes to people in different ways." He said he knew people who had dreams of Him. He had had dreams of Meher Baba.

A few weeks later, as we were preparing for our trip to India, I went to visit my parents in Phoenix. This trip was a big trip for me and I wanted to say hello to them. They were very concerned about me. They are Fundamentalists, Evangelical Christians. I am their ex-minister son, living in San Francisco, no longer going to church and my parents confronted me that day. They said, "Where are you with God?" My parents are loving people and this is their main concern in life. I said, "You want to know the truth? I don't know. But I'll be honest with you, there's one thing I'm sensing. God truly is love and that's the most important thing. I don't know who He is, I'm all confused, I admit it, but I know it's important to love people." That very day my mother gave me a book. It was about a person whom I ministered with at Melodyland and who had had a good ministry there. His wife, after they divorced, wrote a book in which she reveals that he was not the converted Jewish rabbi he said he was, traveling all over the country. He was complete a sham and total fraud. I mean, this woman wrote the book, published it herself and my mother handed it to me the same day she was concerned about me spiritually. I sat up half the night reading the book. I knew the people in this book. Suddenly, I was looking for the answer while being confronted by my parents and everything that I had believed in, that I had given my life to. That night the door was closed on it all. I said, "God, you know I don't know who You are, but I know You're not in the Charismatic movement anymore." I never had to think about it; I knew it wasn't the path for me. I was so distressed by that book that I fell asleep. Naturally, I was exhausted from reading it and I had a dream that very night. (This is before I went to India.) I want to tell you about this dream because it's an important part of my coming to Baba. I didn't know where I was, but there was a group of people. They were outside a building and somebody said to me, "Come with me, I want to show you something." I went into a