in arms for Baba to bless with his touch. All were bathed in Baba's love which enveloped and permeated everyone in a powerful, luminous glow. As I watched, hour after hour, my great wonder deepened into amazement at the sublime beauty of this historic scene of Divine Love in action. I realized that something tremendous was happening there, far more than the eye could see, and far more than I was able to grasp. It's a frustrating thing to discover this, that you are not able to grasp what is happening. I was thrown into a great struggle to see deeper into and to grasp the significance of what was happening. It has taken me years, and I still don't fully grasp it. Only in part, enough to recognize that this is part of his 'awakening'. "I have come", he has said, not to teach but to awaken". To awaken us to the Truth which is already latent within us. Not to teach us something new, but to help us to become aware of the Truth within. In addition to his Love, he utilizes discourses and explanations to help us to understand that part of this truth is to know the false within us to be false. This is part of truth, to know the false to be false. We cannot add the truth to our falseness. We cannot add reality to unreality. If we have integrity of purpose, we must be willing to relinquish the false in favor of the truth. We know this, but we have to do it. Through his discourses, which are very valuable, we come to understand this. Many things we come to understand, to face, and to begin to do.
But, to go back to this experience at Wadia Park, I was thrown into this great struggle to grasp the significance of what was happening. Things that were sleeping within, were struggling to become activated. We do have faculties within which have not been used, we live at a surface level. We do not live at the depths, the freer, the greater depths which are within us.
WORDS OF SAI BABA ―
*Mere questioning is not sufficient. It must not be out of idle curiosity or with any improper motive or attitude, e. g. to catch at mistakes in the answer, or to trap the Guru. The object must be pure desire to attain progress and liberation.
*Mere prostration is not enough. It must be accompanied by thorough and complete surrender of one's self (body, mind and soul) and one's possessions.
*Seva is not any service. To be effective there must be no lingering idea that one is free to yield service or refuse it. One must feel that one is not the master of the body- which is the Guru's, and exists merely to render Him service.