25th October. We woke up with a feeling of depression as this was our last day at Meherazad. The very thought that in a few hours we would be speeding back home was a torture. Eleven days seemed to have passed like eleven seconds. How true are the words of one of the mandali who has been with Baba for forty years— "We hardly feel we have been with Baba for so long." Living with Baba one seems to be in a different world. Time and space, creations of maya, seem to dwindle away in His presence. He is beyond time, space; even those living with Him seem to feel the same.
In the morning Baba discussed the line of medical treatment for some of the mandali with Dr. Goher and me. One of the mandali was asked by Baba to quote from Hafiz. Baba explained the quotation: The pangs of suffering due to separation from the Beloved were as big as a mountain while my body had become as thin as a reed in that suffering. How could it be possible for a reed to support the weight of a mountain? But Hafiz says, ‘I bore it with the grace of my Master for forty long years.' All of a sudden the Master opened the door of Hafiz’ destiny and stood before him with a cup of two-year-old wine. He only took one gulp of that intoxicating wine and got God-realization. " (In Persia wine that has been bottled and kept for two years is said to be very intoxicating.) Baba continued, 'If a Master gets a whim, he can in a moment make a reed bear the weight of the mountain of the suffering of separation. A 'Qutub' (Perfect Master) can shower his grace on anyone he wishes, irrespective of his readiness to receive it or not. If a 'Qutub' can do this, just imagine about the powers of an Avatar, and what He can do for His dear ones."
Baba reminded us that we were to leave that day. We just nodded our heads. Our minds had become so blank on that day that we just did not know what we were doing. Baba asked Cowas, "What is the date today?" Though it was the 25th of October, he said, "15th of September. " I corrected him by saying, "No, the 15th of November!"
Just to give us both a little more chance to do some work for Baba, He decided to go for a walk in the morning. Thus I could have the advantage of carrying a chair for Baba, while Cowas could hold an umbrella over His head. After the walk Baba retired to His room.