and go to Nepal or send you all to the Himalayas. So begin by wanting less. Try to love more. Try to have more tolerance. It is all sublime, and yet everybody is sad, miserable and suffering. Do you all promise to begin dying?" (Each promised to try.)
"If I find disharmony and no willingness to die, it would be better to have you all leave. It is not for name or fame that you have come here. Baba has so many disciples. He does not need anybody. I am always alone and always will be, until eternity. It is you who need me until you become Me. But if you do not try, what is the use?
"Now let us be gay! If you were all strong physically then I would take you to Rishikesh to see the real India."
N. brought up the question of meals. How to cater for all and be economical at the same time, when, as she stated, she did not know when people were coming to a meal or not. Why did we miss meals if it were not that we were eating too much? etc.
Baba himself took up the subject, saying that this was her point of view and that for her it might be good to eat less. But this did not mean the idea was to be forced on all. Each was then asked to give his or her opinion on the subject of food and menus. Once and for all Baba wanted these points clear.
"You have all promised to try your best to die, so let us begin with food. Let us have no more clashes about food. Let N. go on giving the same as before. As all say, you manage wonderfully well but what you lack is gentleness. You (N.) are much too blunt. And for the role of Mother you ought to be more gentle. Be one without duality. Be gentle, listen to all suggestions. If you can fall in with them, good, if not, kiss and say 'no' gently. This is tact. It hurts if you are too frank sometimes. And this I do not want. So all begin to try new, or seriously I will tell you to go. Be honest in your trying. There must be harmony, love and peace. Real harmony, love and peace—not forced. Don't keep the door closed (pointing to the heart). Keep it open so that when I want I can enter. Every time I intend entering, I find a closed door—all because of useless wants.
"Petty things take up all your energy, thoughts and time. So no more of that. Love and forget. This is the only thing that matters. Love, always try to love. You don't like N. being blunt, love her all the more. She needs it.