you are not prepared to obey me or if you have doubts and wish to carry out your own will, then you must leave me. If you love me, you must hold fast to me. I lectured the mandali for half an hour this morning for having breakfast . . ."

Eruch continued on his own: "We should have our tea or coffee in the morning, then our lunch in the afternoon. But this morning we called for a second breakfast."

Baba: "I told them, 'If you want to be of help, then you must not use money that was contributed in this way.' The mandali are near to me, they know I am the Christ . . . they should not have called for breakfast. Most of the people of the world have only one square meal a day, and many in India do not even have that . . .

"If you want to stick to me, you must have a clean heart. There is no use sometimes having faith and sometimes having doubt. It is best then to leave me; then you can lead your life in the world and be free. If you want to love me, you should not try to create confusion among yourselves. All of you love me. But you will be loving me best by loving each other. If one has to say something behind the other's back, how can you tell the world about my love? If you all cannot love me as I want you to love me, it is best not to speak to the world about me.

"Let's put an end to all hypocrisy. Let hypocrisy be completely wiped out from your hearts. I would love to see that. You should all have one heart, a clean heart . . . we are one family.

"It all began this morning when I saw the breakfast. Then everyone had something to say about expenses. It reflected the minds of you all. As I am leaving my lovers tomorrow, I wanted all of you to clear your hearts, so there will not be any misunderstanding . . . Whenever you handle finances, be careful to have a clean and complete account of everything you receive and spend and the balance . . . I want you all to work harmoniously with clean hearts, without prejudices. I will be leaving you all tomorrow. Today is the last day. Now we will make a confession. Who can say the Prayer of Repentance? Who has a copy?"

We all failed our Beloved at this point . . . none knew the prayer by heart. How many times I had promised myself to learn it! Someone ran for a copy in the office while we waited. Then after it was read, Baba said: