traveling about from east to west, there are thousands who come for My darshan, and they all love Me very much; a number of them being ready to lay down their lives for Me at My signal. Yet they have no chance for My embrace or My close company because the rush is so great. When they approach Me the person behind is pushing them on and the one behind him is pushing, too, so just for a second they can have My contact and then it's finished. They do not have any chance of sitting near Me or embracing Me although they love Me very much.
"In Los Angeles there was no time for you all to come near Me or sit near Me as you do today, for the people came there and I was so busy. Therefore I wanted particularly to have a (free) day here.
"You have seen My mood changing . . . as it did in London."
Eruch continued, "Sometimes all of a sudden Baba appears very gay, very happy, and He makes us feel very happy at the same time. He mixes with the children, He plays with them, runs about like a child, and He appears to be very, very happy. Suddenly, there is a change in Baba's mood. He appears to us very tired, very sick, as if something has happened to Him. Yet there is nothing that we can see. He appears to us to be very loving sometimes—full of love, overflowing with love, and we feel as if we want to do nothing but love Him. Again, there is a change in mood and He appears to us to be very stern or fiery, and at such moments we would like not to love Him, but just to pay respect to Him and wait for His orders and instructions."
Baba said, "No one can understand My ways. I am beyond your understanding. Only Perfect Masters can know Me and My ways."
"Another point," Baba continued, "As you all become more intimate with Me, with opportunities to come closer to Me, all that is good and all that is bad within you comes out in sparks, as it were . . . all the impressions of the past, the accumulations of past sanskaras—of all illusory things, which includes both good and bad, come out . . . My proximity, the intimacy with Me, just change that mass of sanskaras and sometimes you find sparks of good and bad flying out."
Baba finished by saying He would like to return by 6 p.m. and that no one should disturb Him after six. We were free to pack or do other things. He chided Don for having knocked at His door last night, about five minutes